Fear

No one is perfect.

I preface this post with that fact because I'm about to be vulnerable and expose my insecurities and imperfections.

So please remember, no one is perfect... not even you.

I have an 18 month old son.  In about 1 month I will have a brand new daughter.

I am afraid that I won't be able to handle it.  Mentally I've been preparing myself for the weeks of staying home, the inevitable difficulties of figuring out nursing, the pain, and I felt ready... until today.  Today I feel so unprepared!  I have no idea what to expect.  I only have one friend who has had children this close together.

Logically, I know that it is not I who needs to handle it, but God who will help me be the mother I should be for my two children.  But I am still afraid.

Incline Your ear, O Lord, and answer me; For I am afflicted and needy. 

Psalm 86:1 

In the day of my trouble I shall call upon You,
For You will answer me. 
Psalm 86:7