Going into parenthood my expectations were... off, to say the least. A lot of the things I've learned, encountered, had to deal with have come as a surprise. Some things have even been shocking. I've had to do a lot of readjusting my goals and my expectations. For this reason I try to be very real with all of my siblings and friends who will (hopefully) someday be parents themselves.
Though parenting is the hardest job I've ever had and ever will have, I don't want anyone to be discouraged by the prospect of becoming a parent. Children are amazing little miracles. My kids have brought me many of my most joyful moments in life so far. They've given me more tears of joy than the weddings of my family and friends. In many ways they've taught me how to be a kid again. I've rediscovered the fun of building little waffle block towns, of twirling until we're too dizzy to walk, of ring-around-the-rosie and falling down on purpose. What child and adult alike doesn't enjoy building tents of blankets and chairs and couch cushions?
Oliver and Wynter show me the beauty in the vibrant colors of a flower that I might have otherwise overlooked; the wonder of a bird taking flight; even millions of different particles making up a handful of dirt. Their curiosity forces me to see the little things in God's creation that are so easily overlooked or ignored.
The pure excitement expressed in Oliver's "Yay!" never fails to make me smile.
The dimple God placed on Wynter's right cheek when she smiles can take my frown and immediately turn it into a huge grin. Even while tears stream down my face.
Snuggles in the morning.
Tickle fests in the afternoon.
Chasing them through the house in the evening.
Absolutely nothing compares!
Nothing!
Yes, I have never ending tales of overwhelming frustrations that have driven me to my knees in tears, but as often as that happens, I wouldn't trade any of it for the world. Be prepared to cry harder than you ever have, but to also laugh harder. Be prepared to pull your hair out, but also to smile widely as you do. Be prepared for everything, because they will take everything, but they will also give you everything.
I thank God for these children, they have blessed my life in wondrous ways!
